That’s an interview from about a year and a half ago with Reggie Ray and Renate McNay on meditating with the body, consciousness and the spiritual path through the body.
It’s gold. Watch it. And pay attention to the sensations in your body as you do.
I grew up in a culture in which we took for granted the imposition of our thinking, the absolute primacy of a “God-given” morality over our bodies.
In other words, the body was mostly bad, something to be fought, something to be fundamentally DISTRUSTED. The body could and would lead us astray. The heart desperately wicked, inherently wrong. The genitals, especially the genitals, organs of sinful temptation, full of shame. Downright indecent!
The past few years of my life I’ve increasingly followed a path of embodiment, of keeping my awareness IN my body–First through noticing aches and pains in my body and tightness in the muscles around my eyes, straining to see more, to see something different…
In college my vision was -3.50 diopters at one point. Now I use -1.50 glasses when I’m driving. And it keeps getting clearer. I’m in much less of a rush now, too, to see more clearly than I do right now, most of the time. We can talk about that if you’d like.
The pain in my left knee… I started to see a traditional chiropractor for that and had some results. The x-rays showed results. I didn’t feel much different though.
Then I started to see a Network Spinal Analysis (NSA) chiropractor in Charlotte, NC. (There might be one in your city, so look it up!) That’s when I started to FEEL different.
I started feeling the sensations in my body, going more fully into them, and especially at first, I was terrified.
I thought, no, I KNEW!: “If I let myself feel this sadness, I’ll be lost in it forever. I’ll never come back.”
But I was tired and out of other options, so I let myself feel it.
And it sucked. Ugh, it sucked.
It was such deep, infinite sadness.
And then something magical happened.
After about 8-10 minutes, I stopped crying and I started to return to a more balanced emotional state, except, something was different now.
I felt lighter.
I felt freer.
My body… the sensations in my body were different. It was like there was more space. I could breathe more deeply.
So I kept going back.
I’ve been seeing different NSA practitioners now for about 4 years (because I’ve moved cities a few times.)
I’ve released icebergs worth of frozen energy from my body, frozen trauma and tension.
Sometimes it comes off in chunks, just like chunks calving off an iceberg or glacier.
Sometimes it’s little pieces that come off. Sometimes I’m not sure if much is happening at all, but I keep going because it’s a practice and my body lets go when it’s ready.
Then, about a year and a half ago, I found Orgasmic Meditation.
Talk about a catalyst.
As long as I practice, that is.
Since finding OM and the OM community, I’ve learned so much about showing up as who I really am. I feel more. I know more. I am more aware of what I want, and I’m more trusting that things will all work out. I surrender more, to what life is asking of me.
The sexual energy is a powerful energy, the creative force.
We can try to repress it, to control it, to ignore it… but mostly then it will come out in funky or harmful ways.
The best way to discover what lies in the darkness is to shine a light into it, to explore it, to approach it perhaps with a healthy dose of caution, but for godsakes, at least to investigate.
That’s my path, anyway.
I want to be free. I want to be fully ALIVE. I want to FEEL fully ALIVE. I want to know what it is to be fully human and operate at the limits of my capacities.
That’s my spiritual path.
To find my edges and lean into them.
And all my edges show up in my body.
I meditate with my body every day now, whether it’s OM or some of the embodiment practices from Dharma Ocean. In fact, I look forward to it! What will I discover today? What will be different? What will I learn? What will I let go of?
So here are a couple questions for you:
What is your relationship to your body?
Do you want more freedom in your body, more peace, more joy and connection, more energy, more structural stability, more of that feeling when you just feel like you?
Well, you can have all that, and much more. And I can help you with some of that navigation. I can help you remember some of the things you already know, if you’d like.
P.S. What are your dreams and what challenges are in the way of having them? Would you like a free powerful 1-1 coaching session? Drop me a line at email@example.com